Kaya Niya, Kaya Mo

Why is this so timely?

When You’re Left, It’s Not The End

After realizing that there’s no point sulking because he has started to move on. Also, given that the situation will not change in the short term, you have to give yourself some rest. Beating yourself into broken pieces which aggravated by his leaving is not what you deserve but rather being with people who chose to stay. Why? Because he sees something worth fighting, while you, on the other end, are starting to feel jaded, awful, discontented and lost.

Again, because when people leave and it is not something that you cannot fully control, it is not solely your fault. Each one of us has specific reasons tailored to what they perceive and see what is fitting for their lives.

As people change, then, leave, you have to consider that it is part of this dynamic life. If it is just monotonous, then, no point of enjoying it because everything is so stagnant and unchanging like a flatline hum.It could be your classmate, your friend, your closest friend, your boyfriend or even your family member. When they leave, you just have to suck it up and accept as if it was merely a bad fate and just carry on. The truth is the older you get, the more people will leave. Unfortunately, as you age, too, you don’t get to gain new ones to replace those who left. You simply have to appreciate those who stay and appreciate them more each day because you have the chance to create more fond memories together rather than dwelling on the past that still haunt you while you’re recovering.

Look at all perspective, you may find peace and contentment when you weigh in all possible factors which led you to be in a sulky state right now. You have to recognize that it is okay to let go because if keeping it to yourself causes you more pain and heartache, then it is not helping. You maybe stuck in the idea of being in love while at the back your mind, you were wrong that you were in love. But how could the greatest instinct of mankind be so cruel? Love could be seasonal – it brings you happiness, joy, but it also tears you apart. You also need to recognize that even how much important this person in your life was, they have the right to walk out of your life, whether unintentional or to stay normal. In that same way, you have the option to walk away from them, too because you decide that you need to outgrow misery.

Keep in mind never to walk away from your self because if you do, you have just given up on your life. Love doesn’t walk away, people do.

Stop Overthinking and Start Trusting

Having overly creative thoughts is nice. You produce masterpieces, in any form, that you could be proud of. These products may influence or ignite passion to others or these can just be your outlet to show the universe how grateful life is. But being a creative thinker also dwells on overthinking.

Inside the mind of an overthinker, you tend to think even the smallest details that may distress you. Having consistent anxiety whether you should have done or not those petty decisions and actions in life which could have left to existence of negativity, rather than looking at the other sunny side of life, is tiring which often leads to self-destruction. I maybe interchanging pessimism and overthinking but the latter could result to paranoia that you always think of what would happen in the future that you’re basically missing the great things happening NOW.

I used to trust easily, believe me. But now that it’s happened, I am converting myself into this humdrum nerd who barely trusts himself that as time goes on, things will be better, the pain would definitely fade and your solitude would be replaced with enthusiasm and joy.

  • Why can’t I start thinking that worrying over things that I merely do not have control of is pointless?
  • Why can’t I trust that people who are supposed to leave will soon leave and people who decide to stay will be there for you, by your side?
  • Why can’t I believe that this temporary pain due to heartache is fundamental to your growth and self-preservation of sanity, and relationship failures will lead to strengthening interpersonal relationship holistically?

When will this start being okay?

Escaping Mundaneness

Do you remember that you were afraid that I would move on first before you? I know that you have laid your reasons for me not to sulk on this wallowing depression but as much as I try to do what you asked me, it feels like I could never recover from this. Such minute idle moments, even for a split second, our memories flashback chunk by chunk that I further imagine what-if scenarios if our situation was totally different: meeting you elsewhere and not in that lustful platform where people pose as their alter personalities to concede from what world offers to them; being unselfish and normal; and not overthinking everything.

Pain is temporary, as Jayvee says and it shall pass by. But why do each passing day, it does not make it less painful but more aching? I guess desensitizing to sorrow would help me finish my day, at least, lest ignoring passion to pursue those plans we have shared as I have only started writing them as wishes like those cute notes you have written on your stationery; they’re all compiled and treasured.

I did mention that I needed that closure. I maybe just expecting too soon that this pain would just go away. Apparently, it likes to stay there and I don’t know how long.